Wednesday, October 15, 2008
heyy people(: im blogging again haha oh well but life is now not so 'haha' for me..
sigh first of all i would like to say..i'm sorry..to my family as without them life would not be half as fun as it is even though we had better times before now..im such a total screw up seriously sighh..im really thinking about letting my bro who has been improving so much bowl in my place instead of me who has been bowling like a total shit head..i seriously think that he deserves it more then me as he worked hard going up while i worked hard going down..sighh..guess you will find out if that happens real soon..anyways..again im sorry i have been an idiot recently regardless of my reason why because its just my excuse for being an idiot so yea..i'm really sorry brothers and sisters):
my attitude is affecting everyone..even the most important person..my bay..sigh im so so sorry..but as you like to say..action speaks louder then words..so..as you have seen i have improved since last time i would make another step again soon..you have no idea how i feel right now..sighh..i'll pick up okay bay..i'll step up and all..and hopefully be that perfect person that you always wanted..ily<3
everything has been going wrong for me..disappointment is all i give..i need to change that..i have to be more forgiving..more flexible..think then do not do then think..if not others around me will be hurt and thats what i dont want..sighh..i guess the only source of help i can get is from within..no where else..all i have to do is be strong and things would get better..confirm...thanks to those who have been there and try to pick me up..you guys are the bestest(:
♥ screams in an empty room
